so, this is what love feels like.. :)

glee

i’m officially obsessed.

it’s 3:09 in the morning and i’m trying to keep myself from watching another 40 some minute episode.

(:

Momay(:

i’ve found a new interest in watching filipino soap operas. they’re so intense. o.o

simply, amazing- I’m addicted.

september fourth.

D-day, as Maya put it haha. ;]

I honestly cannot believe i’m about to leave already. This summer has just flown by. I have mixed feelings about everything- I really don’t know what to feel right about now. I’m going to be a junior at a new school that just so happens to still be in Minnesota, thousands of miles away from my family. I’m anticipating being able to start anew somewhere, almost as though my slate on the social quota was wiped clean, and I’m a new person. But, I hope I’m able to make the best of it all because both the words “new” and “change” I’ve always found to be a bit frightening and not really my forte. I still have so much to do before I leave.. from school shopping for supplies, winter wardrobe, and maybe even squeeze a homecoming dress in there. ;) Ohhh, and packing, packing, packing. How i dislike thee. haha. AND, I should probably squeeze in some quality family time somewhere in there.. I mean, as I come to realize it more and more now than ever, life is short and quick lived. With every person that you love, try and make an effort to have them know that you love and care about them and have no regrets later on in life about something you “coulda” or “shoulda” done. I also want to make it a mission to see some of my old buds from here, whom, to be quite honest, I fear I’ve grown apart from since the summer before. :\ I still have to work on remembering that time really doesn’t stop when I leave here for school, and people really do change and move on from other things and sometimes, people. I still hope to make everything work out though.

I still can’t believe I’m going to be a junior!! Dang, finally an upperclassmen. I’m excited, but nervous at the same time knowing how much more responsibility I have. Also, theres a lot of pressure that comes along with being a junior, not only academically, playing sports and being an active member of my school, being away from family and people I love, and also being a normal, teenage, young lady, but this is the year where my future as an adult all come together, in otherwords, applying and looking at colleges. From now on, everything I do is absolutely crucial to my future, from the classes I take and how well i do, programs and extra-curriculars I participate in, and doing everything i can to do well on the countless tests I’ll take from AP this, SAT and ACT that, but trying to find myself and what i’ll make of who I really am. Oh the joys. Teens being a bit melo-dramatic? I wonder why. ;)  I’m aiming for the stars. I intend on being a part of EVERYTHING I possibly can. The more well-rounded I am, the better right?  Thus far I’ve yet to participate in as much as I would have liked, only being a page editor for our school newspaper, running on the track team, juggling classes, helping out the community, living with twelve crazy girls, (which yes, does come with joys but also can at times be very, very stressful) -I’m hoping to put more on my plate next year.

But really- I’m not OVERLY worried. All in all, I’m sure that every little thing is gonna be alright.